Braxton's Open House Night

We decided tonight that we will come to school open houses only with the child whose open house it is! Dave and I felt that we spent to whole time just trying to control Raegen and Porter which diverted us from what we were there for! We enjoyed being able to look at things Braxton has spent time creating! Here were some of the things he had out that night:

Pinewood Derby

Cole had his first pinewood derby in February! Braxton won't have many more before he is out of cub scouts. Both of them were pretty excited about their cars, and they didn't do too bad this time around!

This red and black car is Cole's.

This green car is Braxton's pickle car.

Lots of good looking cars!

Braxton's car won this race!

Cole's car is in the middle. It put up a good fight!

Cole getting his awards.

 

Braxton getting his awards.

Me.....

Yesterday I was ironing before church and a thought came to mind. I was thinking about me now and the me in high school. Is it sad that I was thinking how much I miss the me in high school and don't really care for who I am now?!?!

The things I wanted most when I finished high school were to get married and have kids. I LOVED babies! I got married a year out of high school. Two months later I was pregnant with Braxton. Life was crazy. We have spent our whole marriage trying to survive. For almost 12 years we have been broke, stressed, and exhausted!

When I graduated high school I was spunky, outgoing, skinnier than right now, and I loved life. For so long I have been trying to take care of everyone else. Slowly I feel like all those things have disappeared. I have become someone that I swore I would never become. I said I would never be overweight. I said I would never yell at my kids. I said I would never be lazy. Slowly all of those things have happened while I've become more tired.

This year I am going to try really hard to spend more time on me. I want that person back. I want ME back. I want to be better for my kids, for Dave, for my family, for my friends, for the people who don't know the REAL me. I don't know how, I still have to figure that out, but I NEED to find me.

Does anyone else ever feel like this?! Or am I just totally off my rocker?!

Christmas.....in February!

I failed to post even once last month! I don't think I'm busy, but I should probably accept that I AM busy. I can't deny I have four kids, and let's be real, they take a lot of time! Christmas was uneventful and small again this year. Each of the boys got a shirt, pair of pants, sweatshirt, and a game or toy. We also did a pair of pajamas Christmas Eve. Although I know the older boys are getting pretty tired of not getting much, hopefully they all still enjoyed what they did get!

My mom knit this sweater and hat for Raegen!

 

 

 

A few pictures of Raegen in her dress.